So I decided to stop the fast . I'm just going to say I stopped at day 14. My first attempt was 2 day. My 2nd was 14 so we'll see when I do a third. I ate my first cooked meal Friday . I was so happy but over did it :/. Yesterday and today I also ate cooked meals and it was the first time
In a loooong time that I felt tired during the day. So I need to spread out my cooked meals. But I am much happier eating again. I know it'll take longer to heal but my mood is way better.

There are days that I miss eating meat and dairy, pizza sounds so delicious . Well I was watching a lot of food documentaries on Netflix . I hate that I got herpes. But I'm glad even if I miss the bad foods that I've changed my eating habits . Plant based is where it's at. Even though herpes is horrible , and I'm lonely a lot mentally , emotionally and physically I hope that when I ride above this , my experiences and knowledge I can help others .

Ok so today again SHOULD be day 22. But I have still drank a smoothie and ate some fruit . I also fell off from doing hydrogen peroxide routine & oregano oil routine . So I need to start again . Emotionally I am feeling better but I haven't followed the process to the T so any delay in curing is my fault . Everyday I start with the fast but when I come home I see the fruit and I eat some . I know lack of willpower . :( . I'm going to still try my best .

So today is June 20th. It SHOULD be the.  20th day of the fast but I messed up after I got an outbreak . I got depressed , the fast wasn't hard but I ate out of anger and sadness. I didn't eat a cooked meal or anything but had smoothies all week along with handful of goji berries and some burro bananas cuz I FINALLY found some. It was just a rough week over all . Because it hurt to pee and wipe I didn't drink any of the herbs that I usually make into tea. It makes be go #2 quite often and I stopped cuz I know it would hurt too much to wipe all dang day. I am not sure how much that week and a half of smoothies will effect the overall fast but I am going to continue to the 40 days. Now that my blisters are healing , I can go back on the teas. I hope I can push through next time and continue to take them even though it hurts to pee and wipe.

I don't think like I failed the fast but I don't think I completed it entirely to the T. But I am proud I went 14 days with just water , tea and juice. The time before I only made it 2 days . So huge jump. I want to do some research on how long it takes certain food to digest. After the 40 days I want to try fasting during the week and eating on weekends but we'll see, one step at a time.

Personal life wise , I am going on Summer break and trying to get a summer job so I can 1) be distracted 2) get my own place . I decided to stay in my current state a year longer .

Hope everyone is doing good. Thanks for reading .

Today has been a rough day emotionally . I feel like my life has ended . My friends are all making great plans and I feel so alone , I had great plans too . I love talking to my friends but I get depressed hearing about their plans .

I am in a situation myself about my future . My pay isn't well in the state I live in. And I have to move out soon (I live w/family ) but Rent alone wld
Be half my income .

Or I can move back to a state that has higher income and cheaper cost of living but since I am not
Considering companionship anytime soon , even after I get cured I want to wait about a year after to be certain . so if I move I know I'd be all alone , no family . Then I also just want to move far away from everyone where I can be depressed by myself and I don't have to fake smiles , I don't have to mask my worry with smiles . Today was such a hard day .

Idc if your pray , please pray for me. Pray for everyone working towards a cure .

Leg pain has got better but think it was because of an outbreak coming , I got a fissure which is what the paper cut like cuts are. I've gotten those every month and one blister outbreak since diagnosis .ok never mind it's full fledge out break :/

My fast is going good tho. It's still early but by months end I'll only have 15 days left lmao . I'm expelling a lot of parasites. When I get done with the fast I plan do smoothie fast so I can get in seamoss which helps expel mucoid plaque . Sebi says we need to clean colon out first . I know there is seamoss power that I could make into a tea but I only have the actual weed like version .

Day 7 of fast and it's going good but for past couple of days I've had extreme prodrome (herpe nerve pain ) in both legs . Usually it's just the left but now it's both . Not sure what's going on . They say the pain usually indicates a breakout is near but when I've had it before I've had small paper like cuts in my genital area don't know if that's an outbreak or what .

The pain in the left leg has been consistent since my diagnosis , so now 6 months geeze ! I had thought it flared up with starches cuz whenever I'd eat spelt or garbanzo beans it would it worse . Then I stopped eating starches and it went away for like a couple day but came back .so I'm really confused now since I'm juicing non starches and it's getting worse ?

Info for Hydrogen peroxide therapy

Hydrogen peroxide therapy - for herpes . It is said to add oxygen to blood stream to kill the virus as it can't survive in an oxygenated environment .

You will need 35% food grade hydrogen peroxide , distilled water

You drink the hydrogen peroxide in 8oz of distilled water

It must be taken 1 hour before u eat  or 3 hours after you eat

To start :
Day 1 ; 3 drops of HP in 8oz of water 3x a day

Day 2: 3 drops 3x a day

D3; 4 drops 3x a day

D4: 5 drops 3x a day

Continue until u get to 25 x a day stay there as long as you can.

Ok , mid-day of day 4 of 40. Feeling crampy , poop has been really watery & some solid. I don't plan to post every day but just the days that are hard.

Today is June 4th. I have started an attempted 40 day fast . It's what Dr.Sebi told Lisa Left eye to do . I don't know how long I'll last but I need to try it. I still have daily leg pain from nerves that herpes effects so I know the virus is very well alive and thriving . I am also doing weekly colonics . Sebi didn't approve but I need it cleaned . 2 mrw I will start the hydro therapy again along with coconut oil + oil of oregano drops.

I'm scared to loose so much weight during the fast and don't know if I'll lose hope after but like I said I'm giving dr.sebi a year . Sad how your life can be over in a blink of an eye. Sometimes when I think about my diagnosis I wish I would have just gotten cancer cuz then I could open up about my symptoms &  i wouldn't be so ashamed .