Ok I got an outbreak this week while on vacation . As mentioned in the previous post I have been eating vegan but not alkaline & have had no leg pain so I do think leg pain was being hidden by acidic foods .

I start another fast 2mrw. My goal is 20 days. I will have another week off as I am going out of town again. When I return I will attempt a 40 day. Work starts within that 40 day. I believe I can do it better when I am at work .

Fast will consist of:
Oxygen therapy
Oil of oregano drops , pills, ointment
Sebi herbs purchased from FB gentlemen
Cold Teas of sasprilla , burdock root and soursop leaves
 Hot teas for the bitter such as Guaco

Gallon of spring water daily

Some juices of kale , cucumber + Apple . Jucing is VERY expensive so it's hard to keep up with it .

I have Been on vacation for a week in Chicago. I've stayed vegan but not alkaline . The good thing is that soursop powder & frozen pulp is readily available here so I can stock up on that . The package on the soursop powder says it helps with herpes.

As I've mentioned before I've had consistent nerve leg pain since I contracted herpes. It's there 6 out of 7 days if not every day . I tried to track what I'd eat to see what sparked it the most . I felt when I would eat starches in the alkaline like avocados , chicpeas & spelt the pain got worse . Then I also felt when I ate too much fruit it also got worse . But I don't have will power to survive on just lettuce and other veggies for a year straight .

A side note , when I got diagnosed in Jan I made a profile on Positivesingles.com it's a dating site for ppl with + std diagnoses . I started so I could discuss the dieases with ppl who also had it , well there's not much there it's not terrible but dating wise the pickings are SLIM like slim is giving it too
Much . BUT I had asked a question about these leg pains . A guy responded to me saying he gets them also and it means the virus is alive but since I am not getting the outbreak that usually comes after most ppls outbreak means that although the virus is alive and moving around my nervous system it is not strong enough to cause an outbreak .

Fast forward to this week in Chicago . As I said I have not been 100 alkaline so I've been eating acidic vegan food and I have not had the pain . Today I've ate only alkaline and the pain is back So what I'm thinking is not only does acidic food feed dieases , in herpes case (or maybe my case alone) acidic foods also help hide the virus in the nervous system but when
I eat alkaline the virus is having to fight with the akalinity causing my pain .

Idk it makes sense to me, does that make sense to anyone else ?

I so didn't realize it had been so long since I posted . Things are the same here , still taking herbs from the guy on FB, but I stopped taking the food grade hydrogen peroxide . I fell off for a week or two then I went full blow to 25 drops and I puked so I need to start slowly again . It's been about 2 weeks since I stated eating again , I feel better fasting and snacking eating meals I still have trouble with portion sizes so i eat too much :/. I'm going out of town 2mrw for a week & 1/2. I packed an Akaline lunch so hopefully TSA lets me pass with it . The friend I'm staying with is Vegan so hopefully I can make her Akaline for the week lol

So I decided to stop the fast . I'm just going to say I stopped at day 14. My first attempt was 2 day. My 2nd was 14 so we'll see when I do a third. I ate my first cooked meal Friday . I was so happy but over did it :/. Yesterday and today I also ate cooked meals and it was the first time
In a loooong time that I felt tired during the day. So I need to spread out my cooked meals. But I am much happier eating again. I know it'll take longer to heal but my mood is way better.

There are days that I miss eating meat and dairy, pizza sounds so delicious . Well I was watching a lot of food documentaries on Netflix . I hate that I got herpes. But I'm glad even if I miss the bad foods that I've changed my eating habits . Plant based is where it's at. Even though herpes is horrible , and I'm lonely a lot mentally , emotionally and physically I hope that when I ride above this , my experiences and knowledge I can help others .

Ok so today again SHOULD be day 22. But I have still drank a smoothie and ate some fruit . I also fell off from doing hydrogen peroxide routine & oregano oil routine . So I need to start again . Emotionally I am feeling better but I haven't followed the process to the T so any delay in curing is my fault . Everyday I start with the fast but when I come home I see the fruit and I eat some . I know lack of willpower . :( . I'm going to still try my best .

So today is June 20th. It SHOULD be the.  20th day of the fast but I messed up after I got an outbreak . I got depressed , the fast wasn't hard but I ate out of anger and sadness. I didn't eat a cooked meal or anything but had smoothies all week along with handful of goji berries and some burro bananas cuz I FINALLY found some. It was just a rough week over all . Because it hurt to pee and wipe I didn't drink any of the herbs that I usually make into tea. It makes be go #2 quite often and I stopped cuz I know it would hurt too much to wipe all dang day. I am not sure how much that week and a half of smoothies will effect the overall fast but I am going to continue to the 40 days. Now that my blisters are healing , I can go back on the teas. I hope I can push through next time and continue to take them even though it hurts to pee and wipe.

I don't think like I failed the fast but I don't think I completed it entirely to the T. But I am proud I went 14 days with just water , tea and juice. The time before I only made it 2 days . So huge jump. I want to do some research on how long it takes certain food to digest. After the 40 days I want to try fasting during the week and eating on weekends but we'll see, one step at a time.

Personal life wise , I am going on Summer break and trying to get a summer job so I can 1) be distracted 2) get my own place . I decided to stay in my current state a year longer .

Hope everyone is doing good. Thanks for reading .

Today has been a rough day emotionally . I feel like my life has ended . My friends are all making great plans and I feel so alone , I had great plans too . I love talking to my friends but I get depressed hearing about their plans .

I am in a situation myself about my future . My pay isn't well in the state I live in. And I have to move out soon (I live w/family ) but Rent alone wld
Be half my income .

Or I can move back to a state that has higher income and cheaper cost of living but since I am not
Considering companionship anytime soon , even after I get cured I want to wait about a year after to be certain . so if I move I know I'd be all alone , no family . Then I also just want to move far away from everyone where I can be depressed by myself and I don't have to fake smiles , I don't have to mask my worry with smiles . Today was such a hard day .

Idc if your pray , please pray for me. Pray for everyone working towards a cure .

Leg pain has got better but think it was because of an outbreak coming , I got a fissure which is what the paper cut like cuts are. I've gotten those every month and one blister outbreak since diagnosis .ok never mind it's full fledge out break :/

My fast is going good tho. It's still early but by months end I'll only have 15 days left lmao . I'm expelling a lot of parasites. When I get done with the fast I plan do smoothie fast so I can get in seamoss which helps expel mucoid plaque . Sebi says we need to clean colon out first . I know there is seamoss power that I could make into a tea but I only have the actual weed like version .

Day 7 of fast and it's going good but for past couple of days I've had extreme prodrome (herpe nerve pain ) in both legs . Usually it's just the left but now it's both . Not sure what's going on . They say the pain usually indicates a breakout is near but when I've had it before I've had small paper like cuts in my genital area don't know if that's an outbreak or what .

The pain in the left leg has been consistent since my diagnosis , so now 6 months geeze ! I had thought it flared up with starches cuz whenever I'd eat spelt or garbanzo beans it would it worse . Then I stopped eating starches and it went away for like a couple day but came back .so I'm really confused now since I'm juicing non starches and it's getting worse ?

Info for Hydrogen peroxide therapy

Hydrogen peroxide therapy - for herpes . It is said to add oxygen to blood stream to kill the virus as it can't survive in an oxygenated environment .

You will need 35% food grade hydrogen peroxide , distilled water

You drink the hydrogen peroxide in 8oz of distilled water

It must be taken 1 hour before u eat  or 3 hours after you eat

To start :
Day 1 ; 3 drops of HP in 8oz of water 3x a day

Day 2: 3 drops 3x a day

D3; 4 drops 3x a day

D4: 5 drops 3x a day

Continue until u get to 25 x a day stay there as long as you can.

Ok , mid-day of day 4 of 40. Feeling crampy , poop has been really watery & some solid. I don't plan to post every day but just the days that are hard.

Today is June 4th. I have started an attempted 40 day fast . It's what Dr.Sebi told Lisa Left eye to do . I don't know how long I'll last but I need to try it. I still have daily leg pain from nerves that herpes effects so I know the virus is very well alive and thriving . I am also doing weekly colonics . Sebi didn't approve but I need it cleaned . 2 mrw I will start the hydro therapy again along with coconut oil + oil of oregano drops.

I'm scared to loose so much weight during the fast and don't know if I'll lose hope after but like I said I'm giving dr.sebi a year . Sad how your life can be over in a blink of an eye. Sometimes when I think about my diagnosis I wish I would have just gotten cancer cuz then I could open up about my symptoms &  i wouldn't be so ashamed .

Today is 5-30

Still taking Sebi herbs . On and off with oxygen therapy cuz they must be taken an hour apart . I still have painful leg problems . I had said I would give myself 6 months to find a cure but it's going to take more than that. I'm going to stick to Sebi for a year then if no changes then go to Kwang wellness in LA who also address herpes. I know nobody has read these but it helps me. I'm still suicidal at times . Feels like it's the only way out.

Today is 4/1/17. Life has been a roller coaster since my diagnosis . Some days I feel ok
, others I contemplate suicide . I started hydrogen peroxide
Therapy in January and haven't noticed a difference .
I also started using DSMO , oil of oregano drops
Along with Dr.Sebi herbs. Sometimes I feel great about getting cured
. Other days I feel like it's all a hoax. I've had consist leg pain so I know
I still have the virus . I've been on Dr.Sebi diet
For about 3 months but only a month in with his herbs. I follow
dr.Sebi groups on FB but I'm too embarrassed to disclose what I have . I get down about a cure because there is NOBODY online who can say they've been cured
There's plenty that say they're on it and That they'll share everything but
They poof from the Internet . I hope I can be cured . But even if
I am. I am not sure I'd ever want to ever expose anyone to myself
Again sexually . I'd rather be Celibate
The rest of my life

1/18 - got my official results today. I went to get tested on 1/7. Although it's only been 10 days. I feel like it's been month. I tested positive for HSV 2 from the culture test. But neg in my blood test . They said it indicates I was just recently exposed to it. I am still in mid outbreak . Started on 3rd so about 2 weeks which I hear is normal. It may go into a month though as they say stress makes outbreaks occur and I'm a teacher so very stressful ! I have been working my way to Dr.Sebi high Akaline diet . As proper diet helps keep outbreaks at bay.

Tuesday . I have sharp pain down my legs. It's a side effect of herpes. I go in and out with the reality that just 2 weeks ago I was STD free. I am still going to try the hydrogen peroxide therapy but I keep thinking its a bad dream. Get tested! Demand to get tested!

1/9. It's only Monday so haven't got my official results back but after much research I am feeling better about finding a cure. I went and bought groceries for an Akaline diet which is said to be the best to prevent herpes outbreaks . I get my 35% food grade Hydrogen peroxide in 4 days. I will start the very next day. I'll have to stay on that plan for a minimum of 60 days. Which would take me into End of March . At that point I want to continue into April and retest hopefully .

Today is 1/8/17.On New Year's Eve weekend I went on vacation to a place I had gone before . I had un protected sex with a friend and with a guy whom I had unprotected sex with before. A few days later, on 1/3 it started to hurt to urinate , I checked myself and saw one small white bump next to an open sore. I freaked out but was unable to secure a doctors appointment until 1/7. By then the white sore had broke. I also had strong smelling discharge and pain in my lower body. The doctor looked at my sores and inside my privates and told me she suspected herpes. She took a swab of the sore and blood test. She will also be testing for syphillis to rule that out as she is almost certain it's herpes. I stayed in bed all weekend. I thought about killing myself . I knew I was careless but why did the first STD have to be so severe? I don't have kids and now that is out the window as herpes can cause many ailments in the baby. As I stayed in bed, I was in and out of sleep as I was so depressed. When I was awake I started to read more about herpes and became angry with not only myself but the medical field . I had got regular STD testing. They would always test for clamydia and gonnorea as they said it was "most" common. I had HIV testing also. I never knew how common herpes was. 1 in 6 Americans have it . Of those 1 in 6, 90% don't know they have it because they show no symptoms !! But doctors won't test you for it unless you have symptoms ! How does that even make sense? They are purposely allowing people to
Come into their offices and not routinely test them even though they may have herpes. I could not stomach the fact that i was stuck with this for the rest of my life. I started to think of leaving home, going far away and being isolated. Then I started to research natural ways to help herpes and came across Hydrogen Peroxide therapy. They say herpes virus can't live on outside which is why it can't be passed through door knobs etc. which means it will be killed if there is oxygen in the body. I didn't know if I should believe it but then it hit me. I must try it for my future . The medical companies don't want doctors to test for herpes because the more ppl infected means lifetime of $$ for them. I have not told anyone besides the two men I slept with about my infection. I really don't know who gave it to whom. I could've been the carrier as like I said before 90% of those infected don't know it because they have no symptoms and doctors don't automatically test for it even though it's THE most common STD. If you're reading this. Go get a blood test. Even if you don't have symptoms . Go get it and don't sleep with anyone until they have a blood test taken also. Condoms
Don't always protect either ! If they person has herpes on their thigh , ball sack etc, and it touches your areas, you can get it too! The doctor gave me anti viral meds that I will be taking until my good grade 35% hydrogen Peroxide arrives. From there i will be following that. This blog is so I can share my experience and feel less alone.