Today has been a rough day emotionally . I feel like my life has ended . My friends are all making great plans and I feel so alone , I had great plans too . I love talking to my friends but I get depressed hearing about their plans .
I am in a situation myself about my future . My pay isn't well in the state I live in. And I have to move out soon (I live w/family ) but Rent alone wld
Be half my income .
Or I can move back to a state that has higher income and cheaper cost of living but since I am not
Considering companionship anytime soon , even after I get cured I want to wait about a year after to be certain . so if I move I know I'd be all alone , no family . Then I also just want to move far away from everyone where I can be depressed by myself and I don't have to fake smiles , I don't have to mask my worry with smiles . Today was such a hard day .
Idc if your pray , please pray for me. Pray for everyone working towards a cure .
Jane Keep your head up and keep pushing! We all have to keep pushing regardless, to get rid of our ailment. I know how you feel because depression is not a joke because I've been depressed myself a couple of years ago and was on antidepressants.
ReplyDeleteAre you taking any of Dr. Sebi's Therapeutic packages or third party herbs from other sources still? How is the fasting coming along? If you are not on any of the treatments in the meanwhile, just continue to alkaline your body by juicing veggies mostly and consistently eat the approved fruits off of Dr. Sebi's Nutritional Guide. That way your body wouldn't have so much toxins to flush out!
If it gets real bad try contacting Michael off of Instagram that I posted on my blog he cured himself of HIV and Herpes. That's the purpose of me posting his information to help my readers. But first before anything you have to clear your mind mentally, for you to be strong enough physically.
Trust me, I still have my moments every now and then, but over time it is much better, than when I first started this healing journey.
Thanks , the fast isn't going too well persay. I haven't ate a cooked meal but have had a smoothie & some Gogi berries every day . I'm not considering it a fail and will continue to the 40 days , (20 more days now ) but I saw my triggers for eating and now I hope I can do better when it happens again . I am still on the 3rd party herbs .
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ReplyDeleteYou have to keep going. When I was first diagnosed with herpes I felt like my entire life was over. The day I found out I was suicidal. I drove home in tears. Couldn't wait to get home to end my life. I was taking so many pills and after every swallow all I felt was my heart beating faster and faster like it was going to bust. I then got scared and thought is it worth it? I started thinking about my mother, my brothers, my sisters, and my nieces and nephews. They gave me the will to keep going. After that day I had a bad headache for days accompanied by buzzing in my ear from those pills I took. I hate I did that to myself. The thing that keeps me going is to put the idea of "herpes" in the back of your mind. Never degrade yourself. Never feel like you are less than a woman because of this because you are still a woman who is worthy. You just have cold sores that come on your genitals ever so often that can be contagious if you have sex during that time. But when you don't have an outbreak, its nonexistent. Thats what I used to keep me going. I belittled herpes. Treated it like a very small piece of my life. and you should too. You can get rid of it. Start believing you can. That is the first step. Believe in Dr. Sebi. I know you want to try whatever you read or etc out of desperation but you gotta believe that what Sebi is saying is true. And also no one has to know your business. Do you tell everybody when you have a cold? No. So why do we feel as though we have to tell people of our diagnosis. Thats between you, your doctor, and your healer. I personally chose to go with a similar healer to Dr. Sebi. This person was the one making his formulas back in the day. Wont mention a name because of all the backlash she's received but we talked for hours about herpes and how it can be removed from the body. I consult with her every few months. I started being Alkaline in Dec and as soon as I did I started getting outbreaks like crazy. Once a month starting in January and sometimes twice a month I got an outbreak. After my consult with her, she didn't even ask how much I could spend. She told me EXACTLY what I should take and it wasn't even that expensive. Im on my third package and I kid you not. I have not had an outbreak since March. I usually have them every month, so I believe in what Dr Sebi teaches about mucus. I'm going to continue taking my packages every month until I've went at least 6 months without an outbreak. And no, I'm not trying to sale you on who my healer is bc I believe in Dr sebi's products as well but I wanted woman to heal me and since Sebi passed I wanted the next thing closest to him. But, anyways, I just feel as though I could sacrifice my weight, my integrity, myself for this one year of eating purely alkaline, taking these packages faithfully, and staying to myself. After this disease is gone, I will then press PLAY and get back to my life . This one year will be over before I know. The same goes for you. You still have your whole life after this disease is gone. You have to believe and don't give up. You have to keep going. I'm rooting for you. So no more of this depression. You have to change your mindset. Get up, do your makeup, put on something pretty, and get out. Have you a good day and try to challenge yourself to not even think of the word herpes. Start practicing putting the disease in the back of your head and never think about it for more than a second. Stop researching herpes cures bc that can be a distraction. Stick with the alkaline diet, take the herbs, and KEEP PUSHING. Sorry for the long paragraph but this came from the heart. I don't even know you but I LOVE YOU. Peace.
Thank you. Yeah I think the outbreak made me sad and depressed again . It's clearing up now so I'm doing better .
DeleteDONT LET A TEMPORARY RED LIGHT MAKE YOU THINK IT WILL NEVER BE GREEN AGAIN. I have a friend that contracted herpes when we were young. She has been married and has had a child and is getting married again. this is not your ending. read up on the emotion code. you need to release your emotions or it can affect your healing.
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